“I do not understand what I do. For what I want to do I do not do, but what I hate I do. And if I do what I do not want to do, I agree that the law is good. As it is, it is no longer I myself who do it, but it is sin living in me. For I know that good itself does not dwell in me, that is, in my sinful nature. For I have the desire to do what is good, but I cannot carry it out. For I do not do the good I want to do, but the evil I do not want to do—this I keep on doing. Now if I do what I do not want to do, it is no longer I who do it, but it is sin living in me that does it.” Romans 7:15-20
This is a powerful revelation that shook me to my deepest core. Deep down, we have the desire to do good things but our sinful nature doesn’t let us carry out. Our sinful nature doesn’t like to serve God. It doesn’t like to evangelize, preach or pray for others. It doesn’t like to study the word of God. Some Christians don’t like committing to church on Sundays because it is the only day that they get to rest. Others don’t like to serve too many times in church.
For many years, my relationship with God has remained strong as a result of doing things I haven’t been fond of doing, at first.
When I started serving as an usher for the first couple of weeks, I remember how challenging it was for me. I didn’t want to do it. The leader of the ushers always told me to take my hands out of my pockets and to smile at the people. He told me to welcome them and to shake hands with them, if necessary. It was super out of my comfort zone. I was a kid that was shy and I didn’t like to talk or make conversations. My hands were in my pockets naturally and it was a habit I needed to eliminate. I continued serving only because my mentors in the church asked me to. They needed help to serve in that area in the youth service and I didn’t want to say no to something that had “God” in it. In my mind, I thought, “what would God think if I said no?”
When I was fully launched into serving with evangelism in church on a weekly basis, I didn’t want to do it, either. I was serving in another ministry (intercession) and I loved it. I loved the feeling of praying early in the morning. I received beautiful encounters through my intercession shifts. When I was asked by my mentors to join evangelism because of the lack of volunteers, I almost rejected immediately. I would’ve rejected because joining evangelism meant that I wouldn’t have time for intercession. It would’ve been difficult to be joining both ministries.
These are two of the major sacrifices that I did when it came to service (the ushers ministry and the evangelism ministry). And throughout many services, there were times that I wanted to sit and receive, instead. I’m sure a lot of us have felt like that before. Or times that I have had my Bible study groups not wanting to do it. I had to die to what I wanted at that time in order to do God’s work.
The acts of service are the reason why I am who I am today. I serve because I am grateful for what God has done in my life.
I’ve realized that only ungrateful people are the ones that never serve. All of the blessings I’ve received has been because of my service to God, my church, my family, the people that I mentor, and to my community.
Service serves a divine purpose. It is beyond what we could ever imagine of ourselves.
I had no idea that serving in the ushers ministry would get me out of being shy and timid. By constantly welcoming the people with a smile on my face, it got me out of my comfort zone and it challenged me to be more socially involved. It got me out of my shell so that I can build more communications, and be more attentive to people’s needs. Also, even nowadays, there have been times where my usher skills have been needed everywhere I go. Whether in a ministry or in life, it is important for others to know that we are available to serve.
By saying “yes” to the evangelism ministry, I wouldn’t have met my future wife. I met her by committing to that ministry on a weekly basis. She joined one of those teams. In addition, my first message in a conference was related to evangelism. The preaching was powerful as a result of the evangelism testimonies. I shared my own experiences in the streets, and everyone was activated to win souls.
Our “Yes” to God will surprise us more than it will surprise God.
I would have never imagined doing half the things I did when it came to evangelism. I have seen so many miracles and so many lives transformed in the streets. Now, when I cannot go out on a weekly basis to win someone for Jesus, I get sad. I miss it.
We must serve God even in times of crisis.
There will be moments where our commitment is tested, and we’re going to have to serve God, regardless. Our service to God is non-negotiable. We must always be willing to have a servant’s heart. Our little things will one day amount to make us great in life. We may not know what God wants to do, but as we serve Him we can only trust that He will do bigger things for us.